Thoughts

im feeling so upset.
4 days of work being canceled and that's mean half of my pay for f1 event is gone.
it just suck so badly ):
if i can work for the whole one week, i can earn like $600.
and nowww... i can only earn like $300 for the actual 3 days.
some more there is no other function that i can work.
this is the bad thing to work at hotel.
sigh ): i aiming to earn $1k for this holiday.

so anyway, yesterday meet up with my dear boyfriend.
have not been seeing him for four days but actually not that long right (:
before that went to bugis to look for Aden's present but failed ah ):

met baby at employee entrance with sister after he end work (:
and the first thing we said was commenting each other hair -.-
oh anyway, i dyed my hair and i'm loving it!
it so damn black now! actually the colour i dye is nature dark brown but it turn out to be so black.
like it! (: and baby love it toooo ! wee

head down to Jurong Point.
endless topic to talk about because we have not been chatting for so damn long.
and cheer up my dear sister!

starbuck - vanilla latte / walked around / mac - oreo cheese cake
we just keep on talk non-stop. good point of not meeting often.
you just have so much to talk about seriously. (:

aden came at 9pm+. sister left with boon first.
discussed / off to ntuc to buy ingredient as Aden wanna cook for us / buy tibits/ drinks
baby's treat. THANK YOU SO MUCH LOVE!

then off to Aden's house!
slacked/ watched tv/ cooked!
Aden the chef, me the banquet and B the steward.
seriously damn cool please!
and i love Aden's house!
He is the owner of the house and it's so nice in there! (:

eat / watched money not enough / sister came with boon
Movie again 12 lotus / and MAHJONG!
mahjong rock! :D

and something happen.
feel really shitty.
i hate it but the truth is i'm part of the whole thing.
i hope baby will feel better.
i feel so heart pain seeing baby feeling so down.
the only thing i can do is to be his listening ear, stay beside him and talk to him.

so mahjong was being cut off like that.
aden and sister fell asleep.
baby and i had a talk until like 6am?

have so much so much to say.
sigh. went to sleep and woke up like 9am?

don't seem to be able to sleep till late this few days.
helped aden tidy up his house/ packed / prepare
and we went back home at 1pm.


so ya, got a really bad scolding after we reached home. okay actually it's just a few minutes of shouting.
and here we go, no more handphone. nice one.
should have taken out my sim card before i went in the house ):

is like, it's holiday now. and i got no handphone.
how am i going to contact with my friends and hang out?
really shitty.
so many things happened in one go.


so right now, i'm like using my bro's handphone and house phone.
just pray hard dad will return my handphone soon.


It's a holiday
and i don't feel happy at all.
i wanna work, i wanna do something meaningful.
i don't wanna waste this holiday.
but i don't know how to start with.
i don't know what can i do.
okay emo shit.
because i'm feeling fucking boring.
what can i do to spend my day productively? ?

and the thought of my work being canceled just make my mood go all the way down down down.
hate to do nothing because i will just tend to think so much.

i will just go watch online movie all the way until baby end work.
and most probably i can only see him on next friday or maybe next next tuesday?
work hard baby and please cheer up. you still have meee who will be there for you (:
love love love!

oh it's 20/09/2009 ! (: