what is friend to you?

i really wanted to update so much.
update about the dating with baby
and the outing with the stoner.

but this few days, so many things happened.
feeling angry and sad over it.
it hurt me a lot to see sister in this stage.
am i the one should be blame because i'm partly the one to cause it happen?

and i don't even know is it wrong or right to get involve into this whole matter.
i just wanna help baby so much.
i hate to see him feeling so upset, i hate to see him being misunderstand and being blame for almost everything when most of the time, he is not in the wrong.
yes i can say i understand him even though i only know him for 10 months and together with him for only 6 months.

i just say from what i know, what i understand.
i don't have to listen to anything, because in the first place, i'm not even the main person.
i'm just the third person explaining thing.

but please don't judge me when you don't even know me that well.
please don't judge me when you only hear things from one side.
please don't assume things when you don't understand me.


oh well, shall not say much.
just hope that everything gonna be fine soon.
and baby will be happy again.
and sister, i hope you will be okay.
me love you a lot a lot you know.


one more day!
really thank baby for making it happen.
hope everything go well for the day.
I love you baby! (:


will update everything soon once i'm okay!
was having a serious cramp somewhere around my lung and heart area.
i don't know whats the problem.
last time, the cramp always last for a few seconds and it will go away.
but today, it cramp for more than 6 hours.
hope tmr it will recover? ):
if not mummy gonna pull me to the doctor. ):

anyway tmr picnic with moi stoner! wee (: